February 4, 2009

a little personal

I've started several posts recently, or written entire posts in my head, but for one reason or another I ended up not publishing them. There's a good chance this will come out as a garbled mess, but I'm going to try.

The last several months have been trying, at best. Of course, there have been lots, and lots, of good things going on. Its been a fairly long stretch of one-thing-after-the-next, though. Most of the really big stuff has been centered around health. Close friends and family have struggled with different ailments, including two cases of cancer. Luckily, they are all on the mend and improving daily. I'm normally a very up-beat, look on the bright-side kind of person, but a couple of weeks ago, I felt like I was barely hanging on.

Life had whirled out of control, and there was nothing I could do to get it back. All I could do was bide my time. One of the few bright spots in my life had been extinguished, and I felt like I was crashing through floors. Luckily, my sadness and fears lasted only a few days. I survived a stressful and daunting week. Thankfully, I was given in-measurable support and love from my family and friends, for which I am unbelievably grateful. While some doors closed, others were opened, very wide. They helped me through.

In the past two weeks, a lot has changed for me. I've survived one of the scariest things of my life. I have been given good news. Great News. I have more-strongly bonded some very important relationships. I have learned that I am stronger than I thought I was.

Most importantly, I've learned the true value of a kind word, a hug, a thought. Just how much a small gesture can mean. That having good thoughts put out into the world for you can make a difference. Being with friends is extremely comforting. Also, that many, many people love and care about me...more than I ever realized. Thank you.

1 comment:

doahleigh said...

I've been kind of wondering what's going on with you. I'm glad to hear that things are looking ok right now. I hope they keep heading that way.